U know who I am... Let's see how long u take to discover this:)


Dear J,

You may will never see this but just so i feel better typing it out.

Was put into a situation when i have to think of us once again.
Just when i thought i am totally over this shit and its nothing that affects me any longer, i realise the permanent effect of you on me. Not that it is affecting me or whatsoever, but more like instilled in me.

Its the thoughts i have, the way i think and the fear of anything and everything related.
The expectations i have and how i will always not fail to compare people to you.
Its so bad, made me so fucked up.

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Oh damn it too many problems in my head! Was just worrying about being broke and no money.
So hesitant to whether i should work part time. THEN, received a sms for part time. November all saturdays and sundays, everything sounds not bad.
Should i work or wad. I want to study, but i really need money to feed myself.
Fuckkkkkkkk!

Screw it i'm gona think tomorrow.

Feels good to be blogging again, its been a while.
How ironic that its bcos of J tt i started typing this post.





EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!! OH YEAH!!!
HOLIDAYSHOLIDAYSHOLIDAYS!


Love holidays! love that i can do anything i want! have my own time for my own thing!
meet up with people i love!

saw my previous post and i went like "EWWWWW. why was i so moody!"
must be exam stress! seriously so grossed out by myself haha!

ANYWAYYYYYY. this post is posted for the sake of putting a happy post! HAHA!


Why everybody so mean today!):
Or am i extremely depressed today. :/


its not even the time of the month why am i so emo now!?
April is so bad!
or is this exam stress? wad is this!!!):


如果命运可以定做
如果有另一次选择
我想我还是会把手让你紧握
快乐的陪你去坎坷
就算你有天变落魄
就算你老的不能动
我想我还是会挽着你看日落
你的心疼在泪光中
嘴巴上彼此嫌麻烦
眼神中关怀那么满
没说爱却早已认定一辈子的伴
在人前从来不浪漫
在心中却总为对方打算
最懂的人最暖的伴


就算我以后变罗嗦
就算我老了有病痛
我想你还是会照顾我到最后
隐藏最弱不眠不休
嘴巴上彼此嫌麻烦
眼神中关怀那么满
没说爱却早已认定一辈子的伴
在人前从来不浪漫
在心中却总为对方打算
最懂的人最暖的伴


嘴巴上彼此嫌麻烦
眼神中关怀那么满
没说爱却早已认定一辈子的伴
在人前从来不浪漫
在心中却总为对方打算
最懂的人最暖的伴

哦
没有辛酸，没有遗憾
什么是陪伴，什么是心安
你是答案




Its such a cliche thing to say that time will heal a broken heart.
But, as cliche as it may sound, it is absolutely perfectly true. (well at least i think it is)
i know like its a hard decision to make, difficult time to go through, but u'll survive and become a stronger person!
to u who's going through such horrible stuff! i'm always just a phone call away! 24/7 alright! rmb u deserve much better! love you much!


through many things, i've learnt this.

its sad that its so true! but sometimes, we're always just too willing to try to pretend it's back to a perfect paper, just so that we get crumpled again.


I have a totally weird thing to blog about! HAHAHA.
But i feel like i totally wana blog about it so HEREEEEE...

I think MrYeo changed car!
haha, i'm not stalker la, its like on my newsfeed!
BUT ITS MERCEDES... i dun like mercedes! why he no change to BMW. hahaha!
(totally not my business i know right)
i think i will start accepting mercedes alrdy, like how i changed from coffee bean to starbucks.

Anyway! i think MrYeo's like a very "unique/special" person to me! like in my life!
i was so hard working, and totally loved geog cos of his influence!
felt that teachers really teached cos of their passion also cos of him!
soooo many little little (stupid) things all cos of him! haha.
sometimes i think i'm weird, and i probably am!
but he's so niceeeee! i wished i had a dad like him! :P

i think i will nv get over MrYeo, like not in the weird way! but like he'll be so cool forever and the stuff he does will forever be cool la! hahaha!

though i dun think everyone else have a teacher they like so deeply, i believe someone somewhere in the world likes a teacher like how i do rightttt...? MAYBE! Just so i wont feel like i'm really damn weird!